April 2011
2 posts
application for position of debates coach
“Many sorrows shall be to the wicked; but he who trusts in the Lord, mercy shall surround him” (Ps. 32:10)
In my moment of need, I still seek God. Just applied to 2 schools, both around the NUS Area PTL. Hopefully I’ll get either one… :)
last 4 hours with this essay. gonna conquer it. God give me strength.
havent gone to church in like 6 weeks. feel quite bad about it actually.
February 2011
4 posts
when God is silent.
that i have sinned, that we have sinned, doesn’t seem a paramount reason for our ending. nothing seems to work.
i chanced on odj today, with the quote “She sits alone in her room—dark circles under her eyes, tears running down her cheeks: that got me hooked, but the rest of the paragraph seemingly applying to me as well. “Since her teenage years, God has been her fulfillment, ...
the story of us looks alot like a tragedy now
dear soulmate, please appear soon. i have so many crazy and creative ideas; things i would like to do for someone that i love. someone to share my faith with. someone to keep my faith secure. someone who would understand me, everything that i stand for.
i found someone once but he turned out to not have the most important thing- courage.
so please, love me, and have the courage to fight for me....
i may not be the best christian ever but i am still thankful to God when He provides. i’m just having a slight crisis of faith now. but still, am grateful to God for providing me with friends, a stable income, lovely students, and people to help make my admin duties easier. hurhur.
still. i wish the best thing that’s ever happened to me didn’t have to become also one of the...
“Better a little with the fear of the LORD than great wealth with turmoil.”
– Proverbs 15:16 (NIV)
January 2011
4 posts
emotional residue.
it has never been so hard for me to trust or believe that everything will be okay
in fact, everytime something bad crops up, i wonder why this is happening
maybe i should have prayed before jumping into this relationship… but i did pray about it. i did pray for it. i did want this. i just didn’t realize i would still have emotional residue.
“Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have...”
– Mark 11:24 (NIV)
“By faith Abraham, even though he was past age — and Sarah herself was...”
– Hebrews 11:11 (New International Version)
“The evil deeds of a wicked man ensnare him; the cords of his sin hold him fast....”
– Proverbs 5:22-23 (New International Version)
November 2010
4 posts
with everything;
Let hope rise And darkness tremble In Your holy light That every eye will see Jesus our God Great and mighty to be praised
if not for God and the trust that i have that i will eventually understand this, i would have been ready to give this all up, go into a corner and cry my heart out and be prepared to fail tomorrow.
but no, i will persevere on. I WILL GET IT. I WILL.
when bad things happen to good people →
Believe that God is ultimately in control. To touch Job’s possessions, family and health, Satan needed permission from God (1:12; 2:6). We can be assured of this one thing: nothing can ever happen to us without His permission. As a good God, He never enjoys seeing His people suffer. Yet sometimes, He allows bad things to happen to bring about a deeper change in us. In the case of Job, Satan...
“God is our refuge and our strength, an ever-present help in times of trouble” - Psalm 46:1
i have never felt like like i needed God so badly till this time, till this set of exams. somehow, i know it’s only by God’s grace that i’ll get through this.
so, God help me.
God provides.
the past fortnight has been a continual reminder to me that God provides all that we need.
2 interviews, 2 job offers, both of which i’ve taken and i’ve rejected the rest… although i’m open to taking another, and wondering if i should take up tuition. this is where prayer is my most powerful weapon :)
i feel so much more settled now that i’ve rejected the third...
October 2010
5 posts
not about talking but about listening
2 interviews, 2 job offers. i was going to reject the second when it suddenly struck me that i might actually be able to manage both… well whatever it is i’m sure God will make a way, God will guide…
and it’s not just about asking God to give answers, it’s also about trusting that He will be there.
i can’t believe how easy it was for me to get a coaching job,...
the little things give you away
its in the littlest of things, the most random events, that God shows His power. a few months ago, on a random whim, i decided to get internet banking. i’m not sure why i did it, but something in me just felt like getting it.
today, as i was booking my emirates flight to botswana (thank God that i can go for that too!) i couldn’t use dad’s credit card cos the only if the...
things fall apart when the centre cannot hold
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold; Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world, (the second coming, william butler yeats)
with reference to yesterday’s ODB devotional -
love sometimes vanishes from lives… (but) God’s love is steady,… it’s so reliable that Jesus invites us to abide in His love (john 15:9). He wants us to know it’s okay to settle in and...
selections
i always think it a big deal when i’m ranked highly in debates. to me, this shows that i’m better than others in at least one aspect. that at least one person in this world thinks i’m of some value. it comes from spending my formative debate years at the bottom of the rut, and feeling like i had no worth at all.
today i realized God is the ultimate selector. he has selected us...
from the opportunities, You've shown Your grace
I’M GOING TO BOTSWANA 27TH DECEMBER – 4TH JANUARY thank God!!!! was ranked 11th and only top 5 get to go, BUT they managed to secure another 3 spots AND 5 people pulled out which makes me 6th!!!!! and 9 people get to go. SO THERE. I’LL BE REPRESENTING NUS AT AN INTERNATIONAL TOURNAMENT.
crazy insane mad wonderful right? highlight of my week really thank God for this opportunity and...
September 2010
4 posts
are we focusing on the right things?
I denied myself nothing my eyes desired; I refused my heart no pleasure. My heart took delight in all my work, and this was the reward for all my labor. Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done and what I had toiled to achieve, everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind; nothing was gained under the sun.” Ecclesiastes 2:10-11 (NIV)
this is something i fear. i...
prayer is important
a few days ago i went on a mad rant about how ineffective prayer was, but that was part of my general mad rant of dissing everything in my sight after 2 days of hardcore debating.
but when it came to the crunch, i still prayed. i still believe in the importance of prayer and seeking God’s blessing in doing things, especially when these things clash with church activities. so i prayed about...
grateful
everything in His time, everything in His time
can’t wait to emcee next weds!!! thank God for this opportunity :) even though its half a day of my holidays gone and its kinda one of the many factors preventing me from spending my holidays ACTUALLY on holiday in malaysia.
whatever it is, i thank God that my life is turning out just as i want it to be, because i’ve shown myself so resistant...
something's gotta give
so i’ll wait upon you now, with my hands released to you where a little faith’s enough, to see mountains lifted, moved and i’ll wait upon yo now, dedicated to your will to this love that will remain, a love that never fails
i am truly so blessed. as i look back upon my journey from 03/01/2008 till today 07/09/2010 it’s been 2 years, 8 months and 4 days of knowing Jesus...
August 2010
8 posts
weekly
evidently this has been a hectic week and i’m dyingggggg (emphasis on the Gs show its a very sustained effect) -
so from now onwards i’ll update this blog 1. whenever inspiration strikes, eg. after hall vcf CG tonight. (i love my neighbour, thank God for her seriously) 2. every weekend!! and it’s friday morning now so the weekend is coming :) even though it’s going to be a...
listen
you are exactly where God wants you to be
and today you might be in the privileged position to say something to someone, to be God’s mouthpiece, to say something that someone needs to hear, if you would only open your ears.
today i felt that for the first time in my life, that i made a difference, and i’m glad i listened.
it’s been rough, things have not been going smooth...
the desert song
This is my prayer in the desert, when all that’s within me feels dry This is my prayer in my hunger and need My God is the God who provides This is my prayer in the fire, in weakness or trial or pain There is a faith proved of more worth than gold So refine me Lord through the flame And I will bring praise, I will bring praise No weapon formed against me shall remain I will rejoice, I will declare...
“What’s not to love about You?
Heaven and earth adore You
Kings and...”
– sing, sing, sing (Chris Tomlin)
colossians 4:5-6
Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone.
What is “salty” conversation for a Christian? Salt is a good metaphor for Christian conversation and behavior. Salt improves taste; in the same way, what believers say and do should leave a...
“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not...”
– colossians 3:23-24 (NIV)
colossians 3:2
“Set your mind on things above, not on earthly things.”
How can we not think about earthly things? It is impossible not to think of earthly things, at least some of the time. We still have to take care of day to day obligations and activities. But to set your mind on something means to make it your heart’s central focus. Paul knew that we would have to tend to earthly...
explaining this blog...
in accordance with point 5 on my blogpost on yellowstarshine.wordpress.com -
through last week’s leader’s retreat, things that have happened this week, ODB and some intense personal reflection, i’ve realized that i’m not spending enough time with God! i’ve fallen into that horrible trap of spending alot of time serving, but not enough time enjoying. that’s a nasty feeling, but i’m glad that i...